Homesick and feeling blue

Well, I haven't written in a long time.  That just goes to show that we are settling into our new life here and there is nothing exciting to write about.  The past two weekends we have spent away.  The first weekend was for my birthday.  Paul surprised me with a weekend away at a resort without Evan.  What a treat!  Last weekend we went to another Emirate (RAK) and spent a night at a hotel and the day at a waterpark.  It was lots of fun. 

Today I was hit with a sudden bout of homesickness.  I don't know where it came from.  I have been holding it together so well.  All the holidays have passed with little sadness.  I have been so strong.  But I guess today I am really feeling the distance from those I love.  I can't believe I have been here six months already.  Time has really flown by. 

I guess I am just feeling tired today. 

I am tired of having to remain positive for Paul with his job search.  He is feeling frustrated and down about not being able to find work.  I am always the one that tries to keep positive and focused.  I don't know how many hours I have spent praying for doors to be opened for him.  I don't understand why he is having a hard time getting in.  I can't count the number of resumes and emails he has sent out.  He spends all day applying.  And, he has not received ONE phone call or interested response back. 

I am tired of working in a place that can be so emotionally draining.  I like what I do and things have turned around for the better.  But it is a constant struggle to remain positive there.  You are constantly being told what is wrong and hardly ever about what is right.  I KNOW that I am doing a great job but a little recognition would go a long way.  I am tired of all the drama that goes on and the constant fight amongst people to look better than others.  There is little teamwork (except with my FABULOUS KG English team) in the school and everyone is concerned with themselves.  It is all about making yourself look better than your colleagues and not about what is best for the kids.  GRRRRRR!!!  I guess I just have to learn how to play the game better.

I am tired of living in a small one-bedroom apartment.  I am tired of being woken up in the middle of the night with Evan wanting to come into our bed.  It is really exhausting. 

I am tired of not having the freedom like we did back home.  We don't have a car yet and I feel housebound.  We usually rent a car on the weekends, but it would be nice to go out during the week too. 

I am tired of being lonely.  I am SO thankful Paul and Evan are here, but I miss my family and friends from back home.  I would give anything to have a great friend across the road who I can go walking with or just laugh with.  I would love to go hang out at my parents and get a hug when I want one.  I would love to call up my sister and hang out for the day. But, having Jannie and her family here is a huge blessing for us.  I have made friends here and I am thankful for them in my life.  I would not have survived the first two months without them.

When things are tough you really begin to question if we made the right decision...

OK, quit the bitchin' D!  Pull it together!!!  109 days.